Life

Has anyone else ever wondered if anybody would REALLY miss them if they were gone???

I mean, if you can have two kids you devoted your entire life to, without exception, and they completely abandon you and don't even know  you are alive.......

Would anyone really notice if you are really gone for good?

A Couple Words

There are people that have been kind to me and I've not been a good friend to them in return.  My head was so jacked up for so long, I did and said things that I shouldn't have.  I feel horrible for all of it, and have no excuse for ever having behaved that way.  I guess I just let the craziness of all the situations sweep me along and left some part of my integrity back at the dock as I swirled away.

I have been trying to make things right with people, step by step and day by day.

There are blogger friends who were very supportive and wonderful to me, and I flaked out on them and wasn't as good a friend back to them as I should have been.  For that I am dearly and deeply sorry.  You all know who you are.

I hope everyone has a great weekend.

Oh, we have five stores now.  We just picked up two brand new Texas Edition GMC crew cab trucks last night.  The stores bought them for TRD and his bro. They have definitely earned them.

Life moves on.

Well I THOUGHT I Was Having a Good Day

Ever have one of those days where things seem to be rolling along just fine, then all of a sudden out of the blue shit starts going sideways and everything goes wrong and everyone is mad at you?  Like shit is literally coming at you totally unexpectedly from all sides, blindsiding you?

Yeah, yesterday was one of those days.

I ended the evening laying in bed, wondering what the fuck just happened.

Good thing we get a brand new fresh untarnished start every day.

Sure wish the bullshit from the previous day could just disappear with the prior evening though.

Oh well, we soldier on.

Love, Divorce & Pokin Holes Where It Counts

I love going to sleep deliriously happy and waking up the same way.  I spend a lot of time in wonderment that my life is so happy and serene nowadays.  I look around thinking "damn, this is real".



I do not wish it would have happened sooner.  I believe that everything had to happen just as it did, or I never would have been in the place to appreciate what I have now.  Everything happened just like it needed to.


Today is my anniversary.  Mister Wonderful sent me a happy anniversary text at 4:31a.m.  Of course, he was being a smart ass, but he did send it and made me sorta smile.  He has always been so good about remembering dates and occasions like that.


No, we are not divorced yet.  The whole bankruptcy thing is getting in the way.  We have to get PERMISSION to get divorced.  Till then, the divorce sits in the inactive docket thingie at the courts.  In order to get permission to get divorced, we have to pay our piece of shit worthless cunt of a joke for an excuse for a lawyer $650.00 to file one paper for us with the bankruptcy courts.  Then there is still no guarantee the trustee will 'allow' us to dissolve our marriage.  Really??  No wonder so many people try to kill each other.


Shit of it is, we could easily just pay off the br, it's that close to being done, but they will not allow us to do that.  They insist on taking a small amount of money out of MW's paycheck for like another 18 months, instead of letting us pay the mother fucking thing off and be done with it.  And to think, we were trying to do the right thing by doing the bankruptcy where you pay all of your debt back.  


A friend of mine just did the whole bankruptcy where you run up thousands of dollars in credit card and other debts and then just say oopsie, I don't want to pay this stuff off and they say ok, poof, you're out of debt.  Same fucking mark on her credit as our, but we've been getting fucked in the ass without the courtesy of a reach around for like four years now.  Pisses me the fuck off.


On to other news.


I am seriously considering getting a VCH piercing.  Exciting!!!


I am also going to get a tattoo.  One that Papoose #1 is designing for me.  It will be somewhere you don't see it when I have clothing on.  Probably on my side, towards my ribs.  Still debating the location.  It will be good.  It will different components representing the different people in my life.  It will be my story.


Have a wonderful day, all.


I'm out.

Hal Bringin Love and I'M A SHORT TIMER!!!

The jalopy is paid off.  Yep, paid that sucker off last week.  How fucking cool is THAT??  And this vehicle is mine and mine alone.  All in my name.  So freaking stoked.

Have a big old great dane/lab mix that I am fostering.  Getting him trained up and taught some manners and healthy and fattened up for  a new home.  However, The Real Deal is pretty enamored with him, so we may have a new dog.  Ugh.  Gorgeous boy though.

Papooses are doing great.  Papoose #2 has a boyfriend.  Sweet damn kid, too.  She is really happy.  Love seeing her like that.

Papoose #1 is still off doing her thing, and seems happy.  She has her own path to follow.

I've got her designing a tattoo for me.  No, I do not have any tattoos yet.  Been waiting.  Bout ready now though.  It will be where it'll be covered by clothing though.  I still don't think they need to be out where they show all the time.  Especially on women.  But that's just me.

Fucking bungee cords.

Only have a couple small debts to pay off and then I'm outta here.  Yep, in a few months I will not be working at Job #1 anymore.  I will be doing this and that helping out with Job #2 and helping those stores grow and profit.  No more 9-5 for this Squaw!!!!

So fucking stoked.

Life is so fucking good, I can't stand myself.

I know I never post anymore.  I guess I just don't have anything to share, really.  I no longer have drama in my life, so there's never anything entertaining to share anymore.  Sorry all!!

Take care of you and love the ones who need it.

Peace.

Hal Goes To The Doctor

Well, $730.00 later, the jalopy drives much better.  The jalopy now has a brand new drivers side control arm, ball joint and control arm bushing.  Yep, that's all we got for that much money *sigh*.  All the things I want to get fixed up on the thing, and I spend almost a grand on shit you can't even see.

The upside to that is the fact that I am no longer in danger of doing a nose dive at 80+ mph.  Yeah, the reason it was shaking so badly was because the drivers side control arm was cracked almost all the way through.  I meant to get a pic of it but forgot to bring my phone out when they took me out there to show me how bad it was.  Scared the shit outta me.  It was really bad, barely even hanging on there.

Anyhow, both of my front wheels (yes, the brand fucking new ones) have some slight damage from when the gal ran me off the road and I will have to spend another hundred bucks a piece having them turned back to true.  Small potatoes except for the fact that I don't have the old wheels to put back on the car while they do it, so I will be without a car for at least two days while they do that.  Cross that bridge when we come to it.

The estimate to have all the front and rear bumper repairs done, the dent where that lady hit me fixed, and a whole new paint job is right around $1300.00.

Only two more payments on it, so after that I can start using that money to start getting it all fixed up.  So freaking excited!!!!

Picking Papoose #2 up for lunch today.  Can't wait for that.  I miss that kid.

Saw Papoose #1 on Sunday.  We had a nice visit.  She seems happy, so that makes me happy.  She has quite the collection of tattoos now.  Very beautiful, but man it's hard to see my gorgeous baby covering herself up with so much permanent ink.  I guess living with an incredibly talented tattoo artist is feeding her addiction to ink, hahahaha.  Sonofabitch is talented though, I will give him that.

I don't have anything else to say today.

Have a great day, all.