Monday, January 2, 2012

I Just Let Go

The above image was totally and unashamedly stolen from Kathleen.  But it is SO perfect for me right now, I could not resist.

I've done it.

I told Mister Wonderful I cannot do this anymore, that I want a divorce, and I'm moving out and getting my own place.

I already rented a place.

It's adorable.

It is the very first place I have ever had in my entire life that is all mine.  I went from taking care of my mother and paying for her place while living there straight to living with Mister Wonderful and raising kids.

He called me Thursday last week and started screaming and cussing at me, calling me names, in other words, the same exact thing that happens every single month when I have to ASK him for his whopping $600.00 towards the $2505.00 a month mortgage I'm paying on the house, and right in the middle of his tirade, everything just went still inside of me.

And I.Was.Done.

Not staying for another two years to get Papoose #2 graduated.

Not taking horrific treatment just to keep my home.

No more.

I'm out.


***Edit:  The Papooses are totally on board and supportive of this change.  Papoose #2 will still be able to finish out the year here in Boyd, because I still work up here five days a week.  She is excited to change schools next year, she has been begging me to be able to attend a school that offers a little more than the small ones here.

Didn't want anyone to think I was abandoning my Papooses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, and the little place I rented is right across the street from Papoose #1's digs.  How awesome is that?????

8 comments:

  1. We will keep you in our thoughts and prayers!
    For what it's worth, I'm proud of ya!

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  2. Excellent!! Once I walked out that door some 18 years ago and then had to do it again with another loser 8 yrs ago I never looked back. Love being on my own, can do what I want, when I want and not share my remote with anyone. Congrats!! Here's to moving forward. You've busted your azz for years and for what, to be bitched and treated like shit??? No more. ;)

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  3. GOOD for YOU!!!!! And Papoose #2...truly. Once that nastiness -- and ridiculous 3 yr. old tantrum distraction -- is out of your personal space, you will be *amazed* at how beautiful the world is.......=)

    I am so entirely happy for you. Very happy.

    HAPPY 2012!!! xoxo

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  4. Good. Very good. Sometimes strength yells. Other times it simply whipsers, "enough".

    You and your papooses will be fine. Better than fine.

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  5. i am so friggin proud of you!@!!! xoxoxo

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  6. sometimes the hardest decision is to leave but I guarantee you it will be the easiest thing you have ever done! I know Ive been there. I have also been reading your blog everyday ( well everyday you post) for awhile now and I was wondering when you would finally just walk away and get it all off your shoulders. Im very proud of you I know it was a hard decision.

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